when will i ever be able to have a best friend? i'm tired of thinking that someone is my friend when they shouldn't be. i miss having someone to talk to everyday, i miss having girl-talk, and i miss just having people around. i'm so lonely now days and it fucking sucks.

some fucking friend you are.

Dear You,

it's days like these where i think no one care for me and that i'm invisible. if i really do mean something to you, why do you act like it's nothing? i know that my mind plays tricks on me, but the same shit ALWAYS happens. what's a girl gotta do to get your attention. recently, i've felt like you could care less about me. you don't kiss me anymore. you don't hug me anymore. you don't tell me you love me as much. you don't even call me 'babe'. what the fuck is up with that. plus the fact that you STILL hide shit from me. haven't you learned your lesson yet?! i care too much about you to just let you go: especially after something this stupid. we've been together for over 3 years and i feel like you're losing feelings. maybe it's just my emotions flipping around, but i'm pretty sure you aren't the guy you used to be.

Sincerely, Me.

sometimes i feel like something's wrong with me.

i can't sleep, i can't think, i can't do anything..my mind is thinking about everything we had, everything we could be, and everything we couldn't be. i just need to talk to you and get things straight. i hate how you ignore me! am i really not that important. seriously, i feel like shit x infinity. can't you just be different for once..